stop calling me dat okay !

huh...ak xtaw nk ckp mcm mne...mmbr ak ckp ak bodoh..knpe lyan sgt die?...npe?..sala ke?..ak syg die..ak tawu kteowg da xd pape..tp..xkn ak xley syg die?...mmbr ak ckp ak nie dipergunakn j tk kesenangan die..pas2 dowg ckp ''laki ni..bia pn dowg da lpaskn ko..tp die still ikat ko..datz mean die x jmpe lg pompuan lain..nnti die da jmpe pompuan lain..caye laa..mest die lpaskn ko mcm tu j..come on laa oly..jgn jd bodo..syg syg jgk...tp jgn smpai diperguna kn..cube keraskn ati ko...jgn lembut sgt ati tu...jgn ikot game die..''....sumpah ak *ternganga* jap..cz ak xtaw nk ckp pe..siyes...tu okay lg...ad lg yg lbh terok..''oly..ko dgr ckp ak nie..ko kne keraskn ati kau doe..kau x bole ikut game apek tu..kau nk ke kne game?...kau nk ke skt lg?...ha?..kau fkir2kn laa ek...ni pilihan ko...mmbr atau apek?''...sumpah ! ak syg due2..ak xley hlg due kot !...npe bt mcm nie?...haih..tah laa...ak pn xtaw nk ckp mcm mne...ble bende mcm ni jd..ak xtaw nk ckp ap...''oly..ak x nmpk pon yg apek syg kau..'' ap prasaan ak pas dgr sume ni?...can sum1 xplan it 2 me..please?...xd kn?...da laa...ak xtaw nk ckp pe...ak blur ! ak xdpt nk fkir pe...:((

bile die da ''naik angin''....!!!!

die naik angin...die mara..die tengking2..die tumbuk pintu..die tolak ak..tampar..(tu pn kne hujung jari die j...slamat2..) syg...sorry...i x bermksud pn..i tawu salah i..i tawu u kecewa ngan i..hmm...jgn pergi tggalkn i please...i syg u gle..i xnk hlg u...i x sngka lak u fkir bkn2 sal i..u ckp i da x perlukn u..syg..sape ckp i x perlukn u uh?...jgn laa ckp mcm tu...sal nme u tu..i pon x sngaje nk buka laa..tym tu lher i gtal gle...u x nmpk ke kat lher i ad luke cz gatal?...pdih laa luke tu...and..i nk mnta maaf cz i tampar u td..i x sngaje..i xske dgr u ckp u nk main ngan pompuan lain..syg..i x main ngan laki mne pon..smlm i kne raba i pon x sdar..i mabok..i mnta maaf..bkn i mnta pn jd mcm ni..hmm...bile u mara i..u ckp kat i yg i ni bkal bini u..npe i xley nk brubah..i terkejut..i x sngka yg u akn ckp mcm tu..i mean..slame ni i ingt u x siyes n x kesah wen we talk bout our future...hmm....den..pas kite clash pon..i mmg ingt u da x ambek kesah sal i..sal hdup i sume...so..i g club sume..i ingt u da x kesah...tp smpai part i kne sentuh tu..yg tu i kesah...tp i nk wat camne..mse tu i x sedar ap pon..u jgn laa mara budak2 ni da...please...hmm...den tgk u ngamok td..i x sngka lak u ambek kesah sal ni sume...syg...i mnta maaf...bg i mse tk brubah bole x ?.... 

hmmm....pas u blik..i sdh..i takot kalau2 u da x dtg kat i...u said it b4 kn..kalau ad org sentuh i..den u akn blah...bende tu...i tawu pasni u akn tggalkn i...i tawu i xkn dpt u da..hmm...salah i..den ak lpak luar..tbe2 mmbr ak ckp..''ak blur r dgn status kau n apek''....ak nk ckp mcm mne..i xtaw nk xplan mcm mne...kdg ak pn xtaw status kteowg...hmm...ak syg die...ak da hlg die..die xkn blik kat ak da..hmm..btol ckp mmbr ak..laki xkn tnjuk sdh die,susa die n syg die kat org yg die syg..hmm...but its too late 4 me kn...ak da hlg sume..ak da hlg die...sorry..

who cares rite?

arrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhh!!!!!!! skt ati? mara?..geram?..menyirap?...uh ! tah laaa weyh !.ak pon xtaw mcm mne nk ckp...mcm2 ak rse taw x...pg2 da bt ak tersentap...da laa...ak xtaw laa asal ak nk emo sgt pasal relationship kteowg kat dlm fb...laa...patot nye ak bia kn j laa kn die nk buang ke nk hide ke..itu die pnye pasal la kn?...kteowg bkn ad pape da pon..haih..mayb die bt mcm tu spy sng die nk dpt pngganti ak kn?...hmm....siyes shit ak btol2 terase mcm kne game taw x?! haih..kalau da xd hati kat ak ckp j la tros trng...xpaya laa nk jge2 ati ak sume..xpaya bg ak harapan palsu sume laa..skt taw x..kau mmg laa x rse..ak pon xtaw asal laa ak dpt blasan mcm ni..ak xtaw part mne yg ak sktkn ati die sgt2..ak xtaw part mne yg bt die skt ati kat ak..ak pn xtaw ap ak bt smpai die nk blas ak mcm ni...nape laa ak kne bg dugaan mcm ni?!!...ap sala ak?...sala ke ak kalau ak syg die seikhlas ati?...ha?...smpai mcm nie skali ak kne kn..damn god ! sumpah ak x fhm !!! arrrhhh!!! tlg laa weyh...bgtaw ak..mne slah ak..bgtaw ak ap yg btkn ko bnci kat ak..bgtaw laa...ak da x mampu laa...x mampu tuk menanggung kesakitan ni da...ak x kuat !!....di saat mak ak da bole trime sume...saat tu jgk malang menimpa ak!! knpe??!!! bole bgtaw x knape?!! smpai saat ni pon..ak ttp syg ko..ak xtaw camne nk benci ko..camne nk mara ko sume...bia laa ak skt..kalau bole skt ari nie sok mampus tros lg elok ! mmg ak x sempurna mcm ppn lain..ak x sebaik ppn lain..ak x fhm ko mcm ppn lain fhm ko..ak slalu bg masalah kat ko..ak taw..but..i jz wanna let u noe diz...i love u mor den everyting...n i x sngka lngsong yg we will en up our relationship diz way...i janji lpas nie i xkn text u or call u da..pndk kata..i xkn ganggu u da pasni...thx 4 everyting syg..thx cz slame nie jge i dgn baik..mkn mnum i...tlg halalkn sume...i mnta maaf kat u ats sume slh silap i kat u..tc..

grrr ~~

• ari nie..ak rse ak x ckop tdo kot..haha..cz...ak bngn awl..(mcm x caye lak kn)..haha
• ak xtaw nk wat pe ari nie..spatutnye..ak kne settle 1 bende..tp...mcm mlas lak..hee..xp..sok bole pegi...
• ak siap awl2...(xd laa awl mne...lam kol 2 lbh mcm tu laa kot)..asl nye nk g giant jap..tp..terlalu pnas..hahhaha...(1 lg alasan mls)...
• mcm biase..ak ttp tggu die text or cll ak...tp...hampa...xd...so..ak tggu j die dtg..(dgn pnuh harapan)
• finally...ad org ktok pntu kuat smcm...hmm...da agak da..ni mest die..cz die sowg j yg slalu jahanamkn pntu uma ak...heehe..
• ak..xyah ckp..mmg ak happy sgt2..mcm da semggu x jmpe...pdahal bru 2 ari kot x jmpe die..hmm..rindu nyer kat die...
• tp..xkn ak nk tnjuk xcited ak kat die lak kn?..jap g die fkir pe lak..malu laaa ak..hahha...
• die lpak jap j..den aril dtg...aril kate skng kete tu die pgang da...okay..so sng laa kn nk g mne2 pasni..haha...tp...sdh...bile die nk bg ekses kad..(melayu laa pulak..hehe) kat aril..so..datz mean pasni die mest da jarang dtg cni kn?...so..ak pn xdpt nk jmpe die...kalau nk tggu die text or call..hmm...mmg xkn berlaku laa..tp..ak cube tk cool...
• dowg nk g main snuker...tp..ak xnk pegi..ak pn xtaw npe ak xnk pegi...sdgkn ak tawu ak mest akn bosan dok uma kn...hmm...
• tggu dowg blik..sumpah lame gle..ak smpat lg tdo...haih...terase mcm da 3 ari lak dowg x blik2..celake btol..xtaw ke ak tgh bosan kat uma?..(sape suh x ikot kn)..hahah
• akhrnye ! dowg jmpe gak jln blik...ingtkn da x jmpe da jln blik uma..haha...pas2..aril ajak g danau..so..ak pon ikot laa...ak da xnk tggal da ! hahah...
• 1 kete..6 org...hahha..ak slmt laa..dok dpn..yg kat blakang..sume da mcm ''sweet couple'' da..hahha..berhimpit2...hehhe...naseb baek laa xd roadblock...kalau x..hmm..xyah ckp laa..agaknye dpt wasiat kot dr bapak tiri..hahha
• jln2 kat danau..grrr~~ bosan gle...xd pape...tetibe..ak teringt lak..dlu ak tmankn die cri kasut ! pusing 2-3 kali danau tu..sume kdai kasut die masok..tp x bli ap pon ! haih..geram2..hehhe...tym tu ak sempat hlgkn diri lg..hahah..tym tu jgk die sempat membebel kat ak ''pantang lepas tgn kejap..mest hlg ! haih..bdiri sni diam2''..hee...tu laa yg die sering bebel kat ak kalau kteowg kuar..hehhe...sorry laaa u..bkn sngaje...bosan..huhuhu....
• pas blik dri danau...kteowg g lg uptown 24..hahaha..lg laa bosan..tp..terjmpe amie..so lpak jap...hehe..da lme x dgr amie mengarut..haha..smpat lg budak2 nie gado gurau ngan amie..klaka2...
• den pas2..lpak mnum jap kat rafi bistro..haha..tym tu..sume masok air...
• ooppss...terlupe..b4 g rafi tu..kteowg ad g epark jap...budak2 nie nk lpak kat senyap jap..tp..malang x berbau...senyap ttup..hahah..so ak pn sempat jap on9 kat BK gne phone...lpak kat BK..teringt lak dlu ngan die..hee..dlu mse die still kpel ngan ex die..die ad lapk kat bk wat assgmnt(kot)..smbl lpak ngan gf n mmbr die iz...so...tym tu..ak n d gang pn nk wat assgmnt gak..haa...tym tu bwak lappy..tp...xd battry..so nk cri tmpt2 yg bole bg lappy tu hdup..haha..so tym tu die ad tgor ak..''weyh..cnie ad ''plak''...ak dgn smbg nye jwb '' xnk r...tu rosak''..hahha..padahal..ak xnk g dkt die..lalu dkt die pn ak x ingn..hahha..dlu bnci pnye pasal..haha...
• pas2 mse da elok pn lpak kat situ gak...(mse tu x kpel lg)..ooo..ak ingt lg...pena skali..tym tu ak lpak kat table luar pizza hutt..tetibe die n d gang dtg epark nk wat assgmnt..den terjmpe laa kteowg..adat kalau jmpe mmbr2 mmg salam laa kn...haa...die salam kteowg..die salam ngan mmbr2 ak elok j...tp smpai kat ak..maakkk aiii..nk putus tgn ak die salam..tym tu kalau ak ad kuase..mmg ak da sumpah2 da die...geram!
• hahha..benci pnye benci..geram pnye geram..org tu jgk laa yg ak syg smpai skng..org tu jgk laa yg jge ak..hehe
• okay..back to d story..tgh2 kteowg lapk kat rafi..tetibe buja kol aril ajak g main snuker..den aril tnye ak..nk blik atau follow..hmm..ak tgk budak2 sume ikot..xkn ak nk blik sowg2 lak kn?...issh ! xnk ak !..so ak pon ikot laa...heh..
• smpai kat sne..sjuk die xyah ckp laa kn...naseb baek afro bg ak pkai sweater..haih..baik die kdg2..hahah...
• smbl ak dok kat situ n tgk dowg main snuker..waaa...npe ak bole tetibe ingt kat die..dlu ak mmg mls nk ikot org g main snuker..cz ak tawu mest bosan nk tggu..tp skng..ak ske lak..(even kdg2 bosan)...cz..ak ske tgk die main snuker..hahha...ak tawu die mest mng pnye..hahha...lg2 kat tmpt snuker ad jual megi cup kn..so..ap lg..ak paw die megi..eheheh...so xd laa bosan mne kn?...hmm..tgk..sume tmpt yg ak pegi..mest ad kaitan..rindu die..tetibe nk nenges..thn j laa...
• hahha..tgk dowg main snuker..tetibe dowg tertnye2 mcm mne cre die main snuker..hahha..klakar gle...tetibe ak jd bgga jap..hohoho...
• pas 3 ari tgk dowg main snuker..ak pon da naik bosan...da laa bosan..sjuk gle lak tu..adooiii..bru ak prasan..rupenye ak xley sjuk sgt..cz nnti ak sket prot..haa..kat sne..da brape pluh kali da ak g toilet tk membuang..agak puas ati gak laa...hahha
• pas2..nak blik...haa...bertambah lak 1 penumpang..buja..hahhaha..da 7org lam kete..maakk aiii...kat dpn 3 org...naim,buja n aril..kat blakang..kteowg ber4..heheh..naim dok ats buja kat dpn..hahha..da mcm ap da ak tgk..kat blkang lak..erie dok ats jimmy..lg laa da mcm ap..hahhaha..bodo gle...
• smpai pdane..kteowg lpak jap kat ali...ak xtawu npe ari ni ak bising gle..agaknye x ckop tdo kot kn..sume da tension ngan ak..hahahha...
• ak rndu die sgt2...sdh..ptg td..lpak2..tetibe muke die brubah..mcm fkir sumting..ak tnye die..tp die xnk gtaw ak...:((...syg..u fkir ap td?...
• lalallala..~~nmpk nye ak n izhar j x tdo...kite da bole jd pak gate da nie iz..jap g kte g isi borang k..hahhaha
• okay laa...
• c ya !

here witout u

• ouch ! sket prot ! ak bngn lam kol 9..haaa..tgk sume org still membute..so ak pn continue membute...haih..tdo j keje ak kn?...mne x gmok ! hahah...rse nye kalau ak tdo ak lg rse tenang kot...
• hmm..ari nie ak xtaw nk wat ap..xkn ak nk nanges j memanjang kn?...melampau laa...tp..tu yg ak tgh berlaku skng.haih..oly2..bwa besaba k?...cube ingt blik bende2 bodo yg bole wat ko tergelak..waah! mmg bnyk..tp..sumenye dgn die...adeh...sume ak bt..ak teringt kat ko!..seksenye mcm nie..alahai...
• ak cube tuk tabah ari nie...cube sedaye upaya..tp..ak xdpt..!..grrr~~~ teroknye kau oly....:))
• spnjg ari ak tggu die text ak or call ak...tp..xd..sedih taw x...last2 ak text die..tp..npe ak text ckp mcm2 kat die?...ak sdh..ak skt...ak xthn...tetibe ak nk die ad tk ak...huhuhuhuhu...
• erie ajak ak g bli mkanan..kat bwh..ak rindu die..biasenye..dlu die akn blikn mkanan tk ak...tp..skng..da bkn die...sebak..ak thn air mate kat bwh..erie ad tnangkn ak...tQ erie..
• ap kabar die ari nie?..die da mkn lom?..da hsp rkok lom?...da sapu ubt?...syg2...i rindu u taw x...
• mcm biase..ak tetap meroyan gak kat dlm blik...ak xtaw camne nk trime kenyataan...ak xtaw camne ak nk hdop tnpe die...ak harap ak setabah die..die da boleh hdup tnpe ak..tp ak?...
• tlg laaa....ak x snggup mcm nie...
• smpai bile ak mcm nie ak pn x tawu...
• :((

kisah 5-19

nak cite sket sal housemates ak...dowg ni mcm2 ragam...mcm2 prangai...kdg2 gado...gado pon kejap j...haha..biase laa tu kn..kteowg lam uma nie da mcm family da..cz..susa sng..same2..baik buruk pn same2 tawu..slg tegor menegor...syg korg laa weyh ! ni nk cite sal dowg sket2...

1. mr. izhar : haaa..abg pj..hahha....die nie okay laa...boleh thn gak laa gle die ni kdg2...tp...die laaa org yg ''masak'' ngan prangai ak..haha..xdpt laa nk tipu die...
2. mr.erie : die nie..1st tym jmpe..mmg pemalu orgnye..tp kalau da biase sume...hmm...org plg celake..hahah..gurau2 j laaa erie !..kalau nk tawu..erie ni pndai msak taw ! haha..mklumlaaa bkas chef kn...hehhehe...die laa org yg slalu dgr luahan ati ak...n bnyk tlg ak...erie..blaja rjin2 ! kau skng da pndai da jln kl sowg2 kn..hahha
3. mr.aril : haaa..die nie ad ala2 cine bukit pn ad gak..hahha...1st ak knal die..die mmg celake..haha..tp..x sngke jd kwn smpai skng..hahha...die nie laaa transport kteowg nk kuar hjung mggu..hahha...syg abg aril..hahhaha...die nie pemurah gak laa..slalu blnje kteowg...thx yo aril !..haaa..die nie pn slalu mara ak..huhuhu...mara kalau ak x mkn sume..lbh2 kalau ak nanges...mmg kene spak kot..haha..cz die da anggap ak mcm adk die daa...okay abg..adik mkn...haha
4. mr.naim : haaa...nme mnje die afro...nme glamer die john..hahhaha...die ni..kalau sehari x perasan..mmg x sah..tp..die nie laa pemghibur kat uma...die kalau part2 menganjing...mmg die ske..celake die nie..hehe
5. mr.ayie : die nie kalau x cri pasal ngan ak sehari mmg x sah..haha..tp..die nie gak laa kwn ak dr dlu smpai skng...hoho..ayie..da gaji nnti blnje ak k..haha
6. mr.icad : die nie abg kat uma nie...hahah...tu yg kdg bt muke garang..hehhe..tp die nie baik..tp..kalau die mara..mmg ckp direct pnye ! hahaha..so..beware !
7. mr.jimmy : die nie JB malaysia...bkn johor ..tp justin bieber malaysia..hahha..die nie chef..tp..x pena lg masak kat uma..haih...die nie laaa magsa erie..erie slalu buli die..cian die..hdop kne buli j..hahha..
8. ms.yan :haaa..die nie..mmg sengal..kalau nk ajak die mengumpat..mmg susa..cz terlalu jujur..hahha..tp kalau die gelak..mak aii...mcm mengilai..hahah..yan2..
9. ms.ana : haaa..die nie..bdan j kecik..tp..suare..mak aii..besar..org plg kuat membebel kat dlm uma...hahha...ana2...nnti da dpt gaji..blje shopping k?..hahha
10. its me laa : yg pastinya..ak plg comel...hahahhahaha....ooppss..izhar ckp ak nie ''hot stuff''..!!!hahhah

weyh..happy gle ak dpt H.M cam korg...even kdg kite sling bhan membhan...n gado laaa..hahha..trust me..korg mmg terbaik..heheh...susa sng da same2 kn?...so..hrap persahabatan ni kekal...ngee~~ syg korg !

its over

huaaa...hari nie hari yg agak menyakitkn ati gak laa..haih..pg2 lg..jantan sial c joel tu da kol ak..maki2 ak sume..haaih...puas ati ko maki ak?...puas hati ko hina ak sume?..puas ati ko tgk ak da jd mcm ni kn?...haa...sumpah...ko laa satu2nye jantan yg da jthkn maruah ak..damn !...kau hina ak mcm2...kau ingt kau tu baik sgt ke ha?...tlg sedar diri sket okay..?!..but..btw..kau ad bt janji kn dgn ak?..kau ckp kau da xnk ganggu ak n mak ak da kn?...haa...so..tlg tunaikn janji tu..cz setahu ak..kteowg x pena ganggu hdup ko..ko nk mampos ke..nak hdup ke..lantak ko laa...lg 1..ko x puas ke maki ak td?..yg ko g maki mak ak asal?!!..tlg respect org tua laa! prangai ko smakin menjd2 skng kn...da laa...ak mls nk cri gado ngan ko..jap g ko ingt ak terhegeh2 plak..hmm....akhrnye..ko lpaskn ak jgk ak...n akhrny..ak dpt tawu ap motif ko slame ni..kuang aja gler kau kn?!...dlu ye ak mmg pena syg kat ko..tp tu dlu..kalau kau x bt hal..xdnye ak bt kau mcm nie..fkir laa sndiri..jgn nk salahkn org j...jgn nk samekn diri ko tu dgn org lain..bodo btol ! haih !...hmm...now..ckp pnjg2 pn da xgne kn?..ak nk xplan kat sape j?...hmm...sume da tggalkn ak..btol ckp joel..ak pompuan yg lmah...ak da jatuh skng...tp..ak da x tawu camne nk bngn blik...ap ak rse skng..ak pn x pasti...yg ak tawu..1 j..skt..bnde tu yg amat terase skng...kecewa?...tah laa...skng da xd ap da yg tnggal..die?...die da bkn jd hak milik sy da....sy dgr..awak ad ayt ramai gadis..bagus laaa tu..ad kemajuan da skng...org ckp..pompuan lg cpt dpt pengganti..rasenye dorg sala...pd sy..laki lg cpt dpt pengganti...mcm awk...:)) tah btol ke x..bkn sy x pcaye kat awk..sy pcaye..tp..tah laa...sy pn xtaw camne nk xplan kat awak..kalau awak kat tmpt sy...mayb awk akn fhm..xp laa...sy xd hak pn nk mara awak...sebab awak da bkn jd hak milik sy...tp..knpe begitu cpt?...hmm...awak ckp...awak akn sentiase ad tk sy..ye..itu sy tawu...tp..bkn ati awak kn?...hmm...knpe awak x teros trg j kat sy yg awak mmg da xd hati kat sy?..kn sng...xd laa sy mengharap sgt kat awak...tp..xp laa...mayb awak x sampai ati kot nk bgtaw sy...mamy...jgn laa sdh da...adik x mara mamy pon..adik tawu..mamy cube bt yg terbaik tk adk kn...da laa tu mamy...ap jd kat adik mamy jgn laa serba slh...tings happen 4 a reason rite?...adik okay mamy......

agak sdh bile sume ni berlaku...ak xtawu nk luah kat sape..ak xtawu nk pnjm bahu sape..sume hbgan yg ak bina..sumenye gagal..ak xtawu mne slap ak..ap kurang ak..mne buruk ak..mmg ak tawu skng kteowg da xd pape..tp..ak still xdpt trime knyataan...ak xfhm knpe sume jd mcm ni...ak still syg die..smpai skng..keep hurting me huh...bia j laa ak mcm nie...nanges bole btkn ak lega kot...ak dgn airmata ak same j..hmm..ak rndu die..sgt2...i miss ur hug..i miss everyting bout u dear..i mnta maaf sgt2..cz i terlalu syg kat u....i xdpt jd yg terbaik tk u..i gf yg terok..i mnta maaf...ilysfdm..

my heart

i am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you

My heart is your's

imy

wat a day...hari nie..ak terpkse melalui ari ak dgn tabah..dgn harapan ak xkn menanges dpn die....ak jmpe die mcm biase d tmpt biase..haha...tp..msing2 berlakon seolah2 xd pe yg berlaku..actually..ak da nk nanges da nmpk die..tp ak cube tk besaba...tarik nafas..hembus...okay..cool...haaa...td ak sempat buli die...ak suh die goreng telor tk ak...hahahah...tah ap mud die tetibe j nk grengkn tk ak..ingtkn die jz gurau.hmm..1st tym tgk die msak...dlu ms couple ak nk mnta tlg pn susa...skng da jd kwn...bru nk tlg..haih..pelik btol !...x kesah laa...janji ak dpt tgk die..hmm...syg2...hw can u act like dat?..uh?...den..pas2..ak lpak ngan die...onestly...ak sebak...ak xtaw nk ckp camne..ak jd bodo jap..ak xdpt nk befikir...tbe2 ak jd skt aty lak kat die...npe die tggalkn ak mcm nie j..?..adeh..ak fhm keadaan die..tp..keadaan ak..camne?..tape laa..ak x pkse pon die tk blik kat ak...sape ak nak merayu2?...ptg sket..ak g tman die cri inai tk htamkn rmbt die..hahah...ak xtaw npe ak tbe2 jd emo sgt ptg tu...mcm bodo kn?...mayb ak still xdpt trime knyataan kot....ak tbe2 jd skt aty fkirkn hal smlm...ak x tawu npe...huhu...den..ak tetibe tnye kat die..npe die baik sgt kat ak sume..n npe still lyan ak mcm gf die?..ak jz x fhm...bkn ak x ske die lyn ak mcm tu..okay..siyesly..mmg ak suke...tp...ak jd blur...die ckp kat ak..die syg ak..tp...ak x nmpk pn sume tu...tah laa...lam kol brape tah ak da lpe..die kne blik...so ak hntr die dpn pntu...da slm die..ak tetibe tggu die bg ''syg 7 kali'' kteowg...waa...asal laa ak nie bodo sgt?...da clash kn...so xpaya laaa nk bg syg 7x tu da..hukhukhuk...die da blik...ak msok blik..nanges sekuat ati...ak x kuat!!! ak x kuat! ak x snggup !...bodo nye ak ! n now..ak rindu kat die..sgt2..teramat rindu...sume suh ak bwak besaba...blh bgtaw ak x..mcm mne ak nk besaba?..mcm mne ak nk kuat?..bole x?...sume x ley jwb soalan ak..everytime i breath..i miss u..n jz cant stop thinking bout u la ! saket taw x ?!... ak da jatuh...ak da xtaw camne nk bngon blik..ak da xtaw mcm mne nk bernafas dgn lancar..!....tetibe j hujan..seolah2 memahami keadaan ak...okay laa...

• awak..tc taw..
• kalau awak nak tawu..sy rindu kat awak
• bile awak ckp yg awak syg sy..bkn sy xnk blas..sy jz tgh thn air mata sy..
• sy nk awak tawu..yg sy pn sgt2 laa syg kat awak

ak tetap gagal..

ak tetap gagal..bia pn ak cube yg terbaik dlm hubungan ak..ak tetap jatuh..biapn ak cube bertahan tuk tdk jth ke bwh..ak tetap menangis..bia pn ak cube tk x menangis..tp...knpe ak ttap gagal?...mcm mne ak nk  tempuhi ari2 esk ak tnpe die?...mcm mne ak nk bernafas..?..skt taw x...lpas nie...ak hanya mampu berdiam diri kalau ak cemburu tgk die dgn pompuan2 lain...sape laa ak kn?...ak rase x gne lak..knpe ak menanges?..ak x spatotnye nanges kn...u..lpas nie..jge diri lelok..mkn mnum sume jge...clz jgn ponteng..jgn hsap rkok kuat sgt kay?...lpas ni u xpayah laa nk fikir2 sal i n family i da..u x payah nk bebankn otak u fkir sal kteowg...mayb..tetibe...1 day..ad pompuan yg lg baik dr i muncul..u jge laa die lelok...(bodo pnye oly...thn air mata tu !)....u..i da xtaw nk ckp ap...tetibe i jd kosong..jd bodo...hmm...i mnta maaf i xdpt jd gf yg baik terbaik tk u..i mnta maaf i xdpt nk jge ati u dgn baik..i mnta maaf i xdpt jge u dgn baik...i mnta maaf cz i selalu serabutkn otak u...selalu bg masalah kat u...x snggup nk taip pnjg2...u tc la...bye

• 1:23 am
• 23 jun 11 
• ilysm and imysm

hang out wit my HM

• td g lpak kat epark dgn erie..izhar..aril and jimmy...hoho
• epark -- da lame ak x lpak epark mcm dlu...rindu gle tym mcm tu..rase bahagia gle..haha..
• dlu epark tu da mcm rumah ke-2 kteowg lak...nk wat pape..sume kat epark..hahha..rase lawak pn ad bile gak bile teringt blik..hahhah...
• epark2....terlalu bnyk knangan yg ad kat sne...tp...tu sume kenangan...skng msing2 da ad aktiviti tersendiri da...hoho..
• haha..dlu pn start rpat ngan apek bile lpak kat epark tu..den pastu..tmankn die lpak kat epark..tu yg smpai x tdo tu..hehhe...skng bru terase sweet die...dlu sket pn xd rse sweet okay ! hahhahaa...ye laa..dlu ak lpak ngan die pn sje2 j..as a fwen laa...(pdahal...ak x ingin pn nk lpak ngan die..hahahhah)...
• btol laa ckp org kn...bnci2 lame2 jd syg..hahha...
• dlu bkn main ak x ske die...kalau die dtg lpak ngan kteowg..adeehh..btol2 ptg mud laa kn..tp..die tu kwn mmbr2 ak..so ak xley nk hlg laa...trime j laaa...bt bodo j..die sembng ap..ak main dgr j..hahah..klakar nye ! 
• ak ingt g die bt lawak ap tah mse tu..yg pd ak mmg x lawak lngsong..tp ak pelik asl mmbr2 ak sume boleh gelak dgr lawak die...ye laa...bnci pnya psal kn dlu..
• haaaa...last2...benci pnye benci...ambek ko....dgn die gak laa ak jth cintan skng...dgn die gak laa ak lalui susa sng ak..hahhaha....
• sygggg die sgt2..
• aiii..ak rse mcm ak da lari topik...hahhahaha...patut laaa bm x krdt...hahha
• td kteowg lpak kat cafe senyap kat epark tu..nme kdai j senyap...tp x senyap mne pun..riuh ad laa...hahah....
• pas2..lpak pnye lpak..dan2 lak rkok bole xd...mne lyan bhai...haha...so slh sowg g mnta rkok kat mmbr...hahha..sebtg rkok kongsi 5 org..hahah...terase mcm kat skola pula dulu kn..heheh...
• smbl2 tu...curi wifi BK...hoho..dpt on9..ngee~~ tp..xdpt nk updated blog..haih...
• den lpak kjap kat BK..so ad sowg awek nie..dtg..die mnta kteowg tlg like band abg die kat astro hitz bagai2...budak2 ni ap lg...smangat laa..pntg nmpk awek..hahah...
• msing2 da kontrol macho...hahaha....
• den..memandangkn erie nie jnis xley lpak lame cz die cpt ngantok n bosan..haih..so terpkse laaa beransur pulang~~
• da smpai pdane..tbe2 sume lapa...den kteowg lpak laa ali jap...tp erie da blik..die mmg da tanak lpak..erie2..haha
• lapa -- tp...xd sen nk mam..so..izhar blnje ak roti kosong n susu..wow...next tym ak nk chicken chop laak k izhar?...hahahhaha
• smbl tu..kteowg sembng secare dewase..hahhaha...msing2 jd matang(bkn sng nk tgk sume jd dewase)..hahahha...budak2 ni..mcm biase...usyah2 aweks..smbl2 tu kutuk2 aweks2 yg ad kat ali..hahahha..bodo btol..da xd keje laaa tu..
• skng..lakk..mcm biase ak n erie still x tdo lg..yg lain sume da tdo..hadooiii....
• okay...i miss him ordy..hahha
• 22 jun 11
• 6:09 am
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love him mor den everyting...

• ngahahha....smlm g lunch ngan deaa...smbl2 tggu die dtg...ak g cek peti surat uma kondo ak..hahahha...
• pas2..ad bnyk bende2 semak..n yg plg pntg..ad flyers pizza hutt..yummie...
• die da smpai..ak msok2 j kete..die da bising kat ak cz bwak msok flyers yg akn jd smpah kat dlm siput pth tu..hahhaha..mcm tawu2 j yg ak akn semakkn flyers2 tu kat dlm kete die..haih..plan x menjadi..skang die da pndai bce plan bodo2 ak..hahha
• kteowg mam kat sarimah..hummm~~die mkn nasi goreng kg n telor dadar..ak lak?...asl nye nk mkn nasi pth n dgng msak merah..tp...ak takot lak x sdap..slalu lau g mkn kat mne2 pon..mkanan yg die oder mest lg sdap dr mkanan ak...huhuhu...so ak decide tok mkn mkanan yg same...
• nasi da smpai..syg...pd ak x sdap..x menepati citarase ak..(amboii..demand gle)..hahahha
• but..ak x kesah sume tu...actually..ak rndu gle nk kuar bedue ngan die...g mkn bedue ngan die..den hari nie..ak kuar g mkn bedue ngan die..waaaahahha...siyes ak happy...ngee~~ bkn sng die nk bwak ak kuar bedue ngan die...hukhukhuk....
• tgh2 smbg..die lak tbe2 bole ckp skt prot..adeeh...ak suh die g membuang kat toilet sarimah tu j..tp die xnk..die ckp x feel lngsong...(amatlaa demand)..hahah..tetibe ak teringt lak mse kteowg x kapel dlu...tym tu ak tman die g ambk kete...den suddenly ak ckp kat die ak nk kncing...pastu die ckp kat ak..jap g singgah kat petronas..ak lak ngade2 xnk kncing kat petronas..pastu die tnye ak..abes tu nk kncing kat mne..so ak ap lg...dgn selamber ak ckp ak nk kncing kat i city j..hahahha..mmg tym tu die menyirap gle laa kn...die antar ak g i city?...ooo..mmg x laaa kn..msok sje da rm10..hahha..last2 ak kncing kat petronas j laaa...hahhaha...
• syg....thx 4 d day...bia pn kejap j kte kuar..i x kesah...i nak u tawu yg i rindu u sgt2...ily syg..
• 21 jun 11--wit love

di saat ak harus membuat pilihan....

hmmm....here i go...go?!...nk g mne?..hahaha...ok..ak nk luah sket...bende2 yg memaksa ak tk berfikir !!! arrrhhh..!!! x ske nye !...hoho...ptg td...my mum call..sembang ngan ak...den lame2 tu..die tetibe naik angin...ak pn plik..haih..xp laa..org tua kn..ak fhm laa..mud dorg mmg mcm tu..kejap ok kejap x..(same laa ngan ank die)..ngee~~...td..mamy tetibe ungkit pasal hal ak sume..ak jd down kejap..smbl tu ak berfikir gak...ap yg mak ak nk smpaikn sebnrnye..last2..die bg ak pilihan...blik kat ex ak den kawen tros or g smbg blik blaja..adeeh...tk ak nk blik kat ex ak mmg ta laaa kn..gile ap...?!! yg bab kawen tu lg laa x than ak...hadooii..den stdy...ak bkn xnk blaja weyh..sape xnk blaja?..peluang da ad dpn mate...tp..kwangan tu yg masalahnye...ak x smpai ati nk tgk mak ak susah...ak syg mak ak..ak tawu niat die baik...ak fhm keadaan tu..tp..ak jz x sampai ati nk susahkn dowg..adooii...tlg laa fhm...den x than tu..mak ak nk sgt ak smbg course ak tu..hahahha...tu yg x than tu...ak da laa x mnat sains2 sume...hmm..blaja tpkse ikot khendak dowg..sape laa ak..ak ank..ak x brani nk melawan...ak xnk pulak jd ank derhaka...hmm...den mamy ckp...kalau ak jz smbg blaja...pasal kewngan sume nnti die fkir kn..sebak weyh ati ak...pengorbanan seorg ibu terhadap ank...den..ak mnta skit mase...dgr k..ak mnta skit mase bkn sebab ak nk blik kat ex ak or ap...jz bg ak mse...otak ak da cukup2 serabut n sgt2 serabut...sume org push ak..sume org blame ak...sume org ckp ak x fhm keadaan...ak ni ap weyh??!...ak cube tk fhm sume keadaan..tp x sape pn nk bg ak pluang tk memahami situasi...ak hnye mampu mendiamkn diri...sumtimes mmg ak agak kuang ajar laa...tp..ak x bermksd...ak kdg x than..ak mnta maaf weyh...hm...ni lg 1..ex ak..die nie mcm x fhm2 bhase laa kn..mmg bodo nk mampos laa kn..da ad awek tu x payah laa nk tergedik2 nk cari ak blik..asl..x ckup 1 pantat ke ap?..haih...tu x kesah lg..ni dgn family2 skali nak ganggu family ak ni pasal pe?!...bodo gle..sumpah ak menyirap gle babi...and 1 mor ting..sepatutnye..jumaat nie..ak da bole start keje da...tp..ak da cancelkn...sebab pe?...hmm...''dek..kalau ko syg mamy..jgn keje..''...okay mum...adik ikot..

die da bace blog ak?

• 1st.ak wat blog nie mse tgh ari..hahha..da mcm ap da rupe blog ak nie..
• hmm.....ari ak rase ak ok kot dr smlm...
• mse ak tgh guling2 ats katil ak...tetibe die msg ''da bngn?..g seap..kte g mkn''(mcm agak garang lak msg tu kn...plus mcm ad perli sket..mntg2 ak suke tdo...uh..~~)
• pastu ak pn rep dgn bodonye ''xp laa..x lapa lg..korg g la mkn''....
• grrr~~~ asyk2 kene mra..bile die rep ''ad i ajak org lain,xp laa..i g sorg'..huhuhu
• malunye ak...slalu malu dgn kelembapan dri sndiri..haih..oly2..*ketok2 sket pale tu*...bile laa nk jd normal..hahah
• pas2..ak pn g laa seap2...den ak on9..hahhaha...ak da sangap rkok nie...haih..budak2 ruma sume tgh cikai..same laaa ngan ak...hahahah(opppss..ap ak nie g gelak?...bodo btol)
• ak buka mukabuku ak...ad 1 wen request..grr..tanak apprve..ta knal...1 msg...dr die..ak jd terharu laa bace msg die...hmm...ak slalu ingt yg die da x kesah kat ak...ad j bende sweet yg die wat tk ak...syg..i x sngke kot u akn bce blog bodo2 i nie..huhu..btw..thx syg...(sbnrnye ak agak malu laa bile dpt tawu die da bace blog ak)...*wit dat face*.hahha..
• now..ak tggu die..ap lame sgt die pnye otw nie?..haih...tah dr mne ak pon xtaw..bia laa...haha
• kat sblh ak nie lak...naim..tgh main gitar...melayan bosan laaa tu...
• kat sofa lak..ad aril..tgh layan cite korea...maklum laaa...minat sgt ngan korea...ap yg die gelak2 tgk cite tu pn ak xtaw...
• kat dlm blik laak ad yan...tgh on9 or tgh tdo or lyn mov...ak pn xtaw..mayb tige3 skali kot..hahahha...
• okay laa...chow2....
• 21 jun 2011
• 4:41pm...(laju 20min)...hahaha

past is past...

hey...ak mcm biase laa..x tdo lg..da bole jd pak gate da..haih...keje ak ap lg kalau x tdo?..kalau x lyn fb..lyan utube laa...hmm...tgh2 lyn fb..den  suddenly kwn lame im ak..kteowg jz sembang bnde2 bodo j..pas2..die tetibe ungkit kesah lame kteowg..ak jd cam...WT*...sumpah ak terkejut gile bile die ckp die still smpan gamba ak pkai helmet die dlu..die ckp..sweet gle tym tu...tp..2 mase lalu...msing2 da ad life..ak ternganga kejap..yelaa...ak x sngka pn yg die still smpn gamba ak..n still ingt knagan kteowg dlu..*terkejut*..den...suddenly..ak BERANIkn diri tk tnye bende sbnr...den..gueesssssssssss waaat...sangkaan ak btol..die bg ak kat mmbr die..,die tolak ak..jz nk tgk ak bahagia dgn mmbr die..ak agak terkejut...smpai mcm tu skali die wat..tetibe ak terase cam ak nie bola lak..bole kne passing2...but..wat is past is past laa kn..tp..ak x terfkir pn nk tggalkn apek..cz ak da syg kat apek sgt2..thx to him...die yg bwak ak knal  ngan apek..nw..kteowg jz kwn..hmm..susa nk dpt kwn yg btol2 fhm kite..ak xley nk ckp yg die fhm ak 100%..jz ad sket persamaan jz kat kteowg..n ak xley nk ckp apek x fhm ak..apek fhm ak...jz die x sdar yg die da fhm ak...ak pn xtaw camne nk gtaw die..biase laa..dlm perhubungan mest ad sorg yg wat spoil kn?...mcm tu gak ngan kteowg...yg wat 'spoil' tu sape lg kalau bkn ak...hmm...camne ak tawu?...yela...da die ckp ak slalu wat masalh..so..cmfrm2 laaa ak yg wat spoil ..hehe..but trust me...ak x pena pn bermksd..hmm...jz kdg2 keadaan btkn ak jd blurr..jd bodo...2 yg bt ak bengang kdg2...lembab..haih...org ckp..kite kne bnyk bsaba..x kire ap pn yg blaku..tu sume dugaan..tp..kdg..ak x kuat..tp..ak x mengalah...kdg..btl ckp org..cinta bt kite skt..tp..ak cube positiv kn diri...ak jz anggp sume tu dugaan ak ngan apek..ap pn yg berlaku..ak cube tk tabahkn diri ak dpn apek..tp..ak xdpt..betapa bodohnye ak..betapa lemahnye ak..hmm...

wat i've done....?

hmm...bende jd semakin terok dan terok...ak pn x fhm npe..sala ak kot bende jd mcm ni..die slalu ckp ak x fhm die..slalu ckp ak x fhm keadaan..ak nk fhm mcm mne lg?...ak blik2 wat masalah kat die..itu yg die ckp..xp laa..da org ckp mcm tu..ak nk wat camne lg?...ak x pena mnta pn bnde jd mcm ni..ak pn xtaw npe kteowg jd mcm nie..ak syg die..ak x pena terniat pn nk wat camnie..tp bende slalu jd..tetibe td die ckp die x fhm ak..huuuh..ak nk ckp ap lg?..ak x pena salakn die..walau ap pn jd..ak cube bt yg terbaik tk die..tp..rsenye..ak ttp bkn yg terbaik tk die..kdg ak da xtaw nk wat camne tk elokkn relationshp ni...die?..die baik..ak x nafikan..yg die mmg jage ak dgn baik..bia pn die slalu mara ak..ak ttp syg die..ye la...mara ak pn cz ak wat masalah kat die..serabutkn otak die...tah laa...mayb masing2 perlukn mase..mase tk ap?...ak pn xtawu...terlalu bnyk org down kn ak..n terlalu bnyk gak ak downkn die..ak gf yg terok..mayb sbab ak x fhm die..den bende jd mcm nie..ak gagal dlm hbngan..ak cube pertahankn...ak cube cari kekuatan..ak xnk die berubah ati..ak takot..sebab ak terlalu sygkn die...

open my heart

mata rabak..ngee~

lpas 3 ari ak lpak ngan die..ak knal die..hmm..not bad laa diz guy..haha,,kteowg sharing prob..well..sharing is caring katekn..die pn bole tahan gak sengal die...lbh krg ak j..tp die agak x btl laa..lain laa ak..btl sket..haha..pd ak die mmg caring..kdg2 ayt yg die gne bole cairkn ak sket..haha..mcm x ley blah j kn ayt ak..14 jan 2011..b4 nk g kolej..die text ak..sdgkn kteowg bru jmpe 10min yg lpas..(terase sweet lak mse tu)..die text ak '' oly..couple jom''...mmg tym tu ak ingt die jz gurau ke pe..den die ckp die crius...ak?...ak mmg terkejut laa..ye laa..i mean..kteowg bru j knal n bru j rapat..tetibe die mnta kpel..(dlm ati ak mmg nk kot)..hahahha..celake gak ayt ak kn...hmm...yg pastinye ak mmg xdpt bg die jwbn tym tu jgk..den ak ckp kalau btol die nk kat ak..jz said it face to face...blaah...blah..blaah...den pas clz sume..die hntr ak blik..tym tu ak agak tertggu2 gak laa...nak tgk die btl nk kat ak or sje gurau2...den..hmm..out of my mind...mmg die tnye ak..waahahha...terkilan....cz ak xd jwbn...cian kat die..smpai 4x die tnye ak...so..lastly ak trime die...bkn sje2 taw ! cz ak tgk die mcm ikhlas...n..theres our stories begin...gamba kat sblh tu..haa...tu gamba 3 ari x ckup tdo...maklumlaa..3 ari 3 mlm lpak bersame kat epark...hahah.... :)) jz da kpel tu..ak tetibe jd agak pemalu n pendiam lak...ye laaa...bru kpel katekn..hahhahahaha.....

i miss dat...

suddenly ak teringt 1st tym kteowg bertegur scare baik ...b4 ni ak mmg benci gle2 kat mamat nie..pd ak die mmg antara budak kolej yg paling ''kerek'',''mulut xd insurns''...b4 nie lpak setable x pena betegor..till 1 day..tym tu ak nk pndah uma..hmm..mase tu brg2 ak n brg2 bestfwen ak yan xd laa bnyk mne..(kot x bnyk)..den tym tu...jz ad 1 kete yg nk angkt brg2 kteowg..den ad sowg mmbr baek ak nie bole lak g mntak tlg kat mamat nie..ooppss..lupe nk knal kn nme die..jz cll him apek..cz muke die mcm muke cne bukit..hahhaha..haa...mmbr ak dgn selamber g mnta tlg kat apek..adeh...tym tu ak mmg da menyirap gle2 da....tp saba j laa...org da nk tlg kn...haa...pas2 tgh2 tlg ak angkt brg..bole bntai lak kutuk brg2 ak bnyk gle..nmpk sgt x ikhlas tlg ak kn?...huhu...~~den...pas2 kteowg g mkn...haaa...kat situ kteowg mcm ok skit laa..tp still ad gak bende nak gado..haih..apek2..mlm tu gak laa...ak 1st lpak ngan die..hahhaha....rase lawak pula bile fkir blik...love u apek...

hahah...rembat sup die !

die yg jahat

hari nie mmg ak x tdo lg...asalnye ak xnk tdo cz nk kmas uma..tp...memandangkn bnyk mangkok hayun yg x bngn lg..so..ak dok menghadap lappy nie...n lyan mukebuku..ngee~~~...ak rndu die kot..ngaa..(tetibe jiwangs pulakkk)....so..ak view profile die..ak view sume older post die...ye laa..nme pon xd keje..so cri keje yg bodo laaa kn...den...ak mcm.........hmmm....tah laa..ak jd cam sdh..(xd laaa sdh mne..jz xtaw camne nk xplan prasaan tu)..betapa bhagia nye die dlu...okay..honestly..mmg ak jeles...cz..bnyk giler pompuan lawa kat fb die..hahahha..berbanding ngan ak nie..alahaii...ap j yg ad...rupe xd..adeh..sedih kot die dpt awek yg x lawa cam ak...hmm....ok2..back 2 d story...hmm...berbnding skng..ak jz mcm rse die x bahagia ngan ak..waaaaaaaa~~...x sngka ak ley wat statement mcm tu..! grrr~~~....ak da laa slalu cri gado ngan die..tah pape laaa kn..plg pelik..ak xtaw camne nk terus trg ngan die kalau face 2 face..x rse cam bangang sket ke ak nie?...fuuhh~~~...ari tu...(bln lps) bday die...damn..ak x wat pape pon kat die..cian die...ngam2 lak tym tu ak ngah xd sen..adeehh...ak lak serba slh kat die..sorry syg...den plg bodo skali..ak x reti nk wat sumting sweet for him..huhuhu..bkn ak xnk wat..tp ak mmg xtaw nk wat bende2 sweet..kdg..jelez gak tgk org lain dpt bt sumting sweet for their lover..tp ak..hahahhaha...jz wanna let him noe dat i really love him mor den i ever any1...ak xtaw camne nk bgtaw die..hmm..da laa ri tu ak msak syur x sdap tk die..hmm..i admit dat ak bknnye reti sgt nk msk..waaaaaaaa~~~ amat memalukn...den die mara ak cz ak msak lauk xd kuah..eherk2..pas2 ayt plg bt ak tacing kat die ialah ''kalau i tawu baik i suh j auntie i msak td''...peerrhhh...sumpah tacing gile2 ak tym tu...datz y ak x g tmankn die mkn..ak malu kot..hmmm....xp laa...pasnie ak da xnk msak tk die.. :((....huhuhu....btw..rindu die sgt2...xtaw ble nk jmpe die lg..(bajet mcm jmpe sethn skali j...)....